So on this Autumn morning, I have started my research toward my Autumn/Winter 2013 collection. I found myself going through pictures of what I already knew to be a "general" theme throughout the collection. - The chinese funeral - I believe it is the first path one takes to their own rebirth. I started thinking what this means to me, what it means in 'general'.
As I was flicking through the pictures and listening to the above song on Youtube, I started crying. The more I saw the pictures the more I felt & the sadder I became. I said to myself, this is it, things like this, designing collections, having a message, doing something you believe in, will ALWAYS BRING YOU BACK TO THE RAWEST OF EMOTIONS. Whether people understand it or not / like it or not / interested or not - it's there, you're there - open for judgement.
It may have morphed to a completely new thing or become such an abstract of the fundamental 'concept' in six months time when it hits the runway, but it's there - and here's proof.
I find it interesting when people/friends/family ask - what is this collection about? and I know I am supposed to be able to succinctly answer and define what I am doing in ONE sentence and make it look easy, but the truth is, I can't.
I sometimes feel lost from this point of concept research, to concept sketch, to then toiling, sampling, fabric choices, manufacturing, photoshooting, and anything else that I have missed out to the final product "open for judgement" - It's the process that not many people get to see, and it's the process that I love.
My first collection Kings die like other men - my "go-to" sentence was: "It's about horses with heavy equestrian influences" - It becomes so filtered and watered down to the point that it almost makes me look stupid, but at the same time people don't want to hear: It's about death and that whoever you idolise will die, Kings die, you will die, we all die and it's a very personal tribute to my father... and what they ACTUALLY hear when I say that is:
"Like, I'm totes emo, and like I like death coz like I have issues and Like I'm just like a totes narcissistic prick that like cares so much about... like.. death.." of course with upward inflections all the way through it.
Whereas my "go-to" sentence works a treat and I usually get responses like:
"WOW yehh, I get it... it's so RALPH LAUREN - omg I love it."
I was told "Fashion is a very narcissistic industry" and fashion "people" are narcissistic people and in response I'd like to say, thank you, you're welcome.